About Me

I was born on July 18, 1960 and raised in Southern California.
I lived there until I was almost 18 and then moved to Northwest Arkansas
I am a lover of music, it is my passion. I love all kinds from every genre. My favorite band of all time is The Smashing Pumpkins.
I love you Billy.
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I am and admin on the Official Smashing Pumpkins site, and you can find my links that correspond under Apathy's Ecstasy(my username on the board is apathyse though). My first Pumpkins show was in 1991 in Norman, Oklahoma.
Here is a pic of me and Billy in Kansas City at the Anniversary tour on Nov 24th,2008.

I wrote a book for him, and had the chance to give it to him with a cubs bear. I sure wish I knew what he thought of my book.

I paint, and am an amateur photographer, graphic artist and web designer.
I spent most my adult life from 15 on working in fast foods, as a secretary, pc installer, isp tech, tech support, then sales, until Jan 2008 when I was blessed with the first position I ever loved, and it was helping people. But then in Jan 2009 they closed the entire company and I was laid off.
I have studied theology and am an ordained minster, have studied the kabbalah, the tarot, astrology, mythology, alchemy. I had/have an intense thirst for knowledge, always feeling the pieces didnt fit, and I couldnt rest til I fond the answers that solved the puzzle.
I was led to the study of Metaphysics in 2008 and have not looked back. I can honestly say I have found the answers I have searched for my entire life, I have solved the puzzle, and I am at peace and very happy now.
I have a wonderful beautiful amazing daughter that is the love of my life who is just turning 19.

I love you Charity

Here is a pic Charity took when Billy was on his Solo tour at The Pagent in St Louis, it was her first concert ever!