Life Changing

On Dec.16th I went to the emergency room with what I thought was bronchitis, or walking pneumonia. I have no medical insurance, and because of the place I was working at being completely shut down, I have been unemployed since June.
What the attending physician knocked me off my feet.
After a CT scan, blood work, he came in and informed me that I have a tumor about the size of a golf ball in my right lung, and that it has spread to my liver. In which he said I have only 3 to 4 months to live.
He even doubted I would make it home. He wanted to admit me there and then to run tests. I told him I couldn't. My family didn't even know I had left the house, and I had to talk to them about this.
That was by far the hardest, most horrible thing I have ever had to do.
The ER doctor referred me to a pulmonologist, who in turn referred me to an oncologist. I went for a liver biopsy on Christmas Eve. The results confirmed what the ER doctor had told me. Metastatic Small Cell Carcinoma.
I went to the Oncologist that I was referred to and they did a PET scan, blood work, and a brain MRI. He also confirmed what the ER doctor had found.
The only option at this point is chemotherapy.
I want to go to the Cancer Treatment Center of America in Chicago, IL. They don't accept medicaid, only medicare, and at this point I don't have either.
I cant afford it. My family, friends ect, can't either. I have contacted the American Lung Foundation, and they also researched everything that may be available to help me as well, nothing, nada, zilch.

The reason I want to go to this particular place is that they treat the mind, body and spirit. Not just one treatment. The Chemotherapy that the doctor wants to do, my doctor said will only make the cancer tolerable, it will not cure it, and they can't get it all.
Chemotherapy works great for many, but for some it is worse than the disease itself, and there is no way to tell until you start the treatment.

I have a 19 year old daughter, I live with my disabled elderly mother, I take care of her, and have for awhile now. I can't tell you how utterly devastating this news is. This cancer I have is a very fast acting cancer, so there is not a lot of time at all, to make up my mind.
Whatever I decide I have to do it quickly.
I have set up a donation paypal button for anyone who might like to help in making it possible to go to this treatment center.
If anyone has any questions at all please email me.
I will be updating this as much as possible to keep everyone in the know.
I can beat this I know I can, I am confident that a positive outlook and frame of mind is essential in beating any obstacle. I will never give up, give in or give way. I will fight this, I will be successful.
So if you feel you would like to help please do. Thank you in Advance. Thank you to all the people who have gaven me their love, support, thoughts and prayers. You have no idea just how much this means to me.
with love
Roxanna